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Zinzan
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Hi All 
(Admin First :
1. Yes I'm having a BAD day.
2. No sexy pics, not much foul language.
3. Any Humour will be of your own devising or accidental
4. No I have NO idea what he's about to write.
5. Yes I'm letting him off the leash for a bit
6. No I'm not feeling guilty about this.
7. You HAVE been warned!)
So here I am on the last of 5 days off, rushing around trying to get housework done; chasing up a MAJOR meeting prep for Friday, organising transport AND my company phone dies taking all it's contacts with it. I have no access to backups - wrong location and some major shit is going down. Having to take v.imposrtant statements/planning meetings via a poor phone line. Melt down approaching.
I've now discovered proposed Pay Rise has been cancelled, bonus is on hold, Head of Department who queried this to Finance Director has "resigned" and is clearing desk RIGHT now. Company accounts STILL not published and Cheery Promo Newsletter front page leaked last week has been denied and internal news has been shut down, just received a reminder of companies social media policy and NO comms with press etc policy restated! So everything has been hunky dory whilst I've been away!! Emails have gone bersek though FB etc quiet hmmmmmmmm.
THIS WAS SUPPOSSED to be MY day OFF GODDAMMIT!!!!!!!
- the voices in my head saying - Get on the bike with camping kit and the bag of ABSOLUTELY must not leave behind stuff and effing off in a random direction for a couple of years. I hear Europe is nice, Amsterdam for a month or two followed by West Coast Italy for Autumn winter etc - IS starting to get on top of me
SO I NEED TO VENT
I'm chasing emails whilst doing washing, clearing rubble trying to sort Luck and dinner whilst realising I have beds to make, clothes to iron, uniform to prepare, dishes to wash, bins to empty, SEVEN CM turns to process - incl 2 NEW game setups to sort. ARRRGGGGGHHHHHHH I HATE getting behind on CM, and HATE rushing setup turns!!!!! I regret it sooooo much later.
2 work colleagues - one each of my wife and me - have been diagnosed with terminal illnesses in last week. Whilst neither are close friends of mine & neither was a "BOLT from the BLUE" moment it's never nice to see it happening to people and my Hearty "We all die, where's yer Bucket list" attitude to this is apparantly "NOT APPROPRIATE" at the moment, or EVER!!
The last 4 days have consisted of 1 Family wedding (beloved niece), 2 significant family birthdays (eldest daughter & wifes!! Great time had, much money spent, enormous amount of running around, wrappingh prepping, being nice to distant family, trying REALLY hard not to be too much of a bastard to any of them. Strain of being "normal" funny me rather than WAY too honest, doesn't get the social niceties, trying to navigate completely inexplicable relationship maps of family and friends etc was enormous. Apparently I succeeded "pretty well" (up my acting and disguise ranks).
However situation with wife still strained
Apologies to anyone who found any of the above offensive, boring or irrelevant - TOUGH
BUT I feel better-ish
(Last admin note
He's fine - well he's OK and DOESN'T need support or help.
Though - Thanks to anyone who has enough empathy to give a damn, he lost most of that years ago!
Such occassional rants are one of his ways of maintaining his mental heath, and they work well. This site is one he feels comfortable on - however if members want such stuff taken away he's fine with that. Contact me or @Shane to complain .)
(Admin First :
1. Yes I'm having a BAD day.
2. No sexy pics, not much foul language.
3. Any Humour will be of your own devising or accidental
4. No I have NO idea what he's about to write.
5. Yes I'm letting him off the leash for a bit
6. No I'm not feeling guilty about this.
7. You HAVE been warned!)
So here I am on the last of 5 days off, rushing around trying to get housework done; chasing up a MAJOR meeting prep for Friday, organising transport AND my company phone dies taking all it's contacts with it. I have no access to backups - wrong location and some major shit is going down. Having to take v.imposrtant statements/planning meetings via a poor phone line. Melt down approaching.
I've now discovered proposed Pay Rise has been cancelled, bonus is on hold, Head of Department who queried this to Finance Director has "resigned" and is clearing desk RIGHT now. Company accounts STILL not published and Cheery Promo Newsletter front page leaked last week has been denied and internal news has been shut down, just received a reminder of companies social media policy and NO comms with press etc policy restated! So everything has been hunky dory whilst I've been away!! Emails have gone bersek though FB etc quiet hmmmmmmmm.
THIS WAS SUPPOSSED to be MY day OFF GODDAMMIT!!!!!!!
- the voices in my head saying - Get on the bike with camping kit and the bag of ABSOLUTELY must not leave behind stuff and effing off in a random direction for a couple of years. I hear Europe is nice, Amsterdam for a month or two followed by West Coast Italy for Autumn winter etc - IS starting to get on top of me
SO I NEED TO VENT
I'm chasing emails whilst doing washing, clearing rubble trying to sort Luck and dinner whilst realising I have beds to make, clothes to iron, uniform to prepare, dishes to wash, bins to empty, SEVEN CM turns to process - incl 2 NEW game setups to sort. ARRRGGGGGHHHHHHH I HATE getting behind on CM, and HATE rushing setup turns!!!!! I regret it sooooo much later.
2 work colleagues - one each of my wife and me - have been diagnosed with terminal illnesses in last week. Whilst neither are close friends of mine & neither was a "BOLT from the BLUE" moment it's never nice to see it happening to people and my Hearty "We all die, where's yer Bucket list" attitude to this is apparantly "NOT APPROPRIATE" at the moment, or EVER!!
The last 4 days have consisted of 1 Family wedding (beloved niece), 2 significant family birthdays (eldest daughter & wifes!! Great time had, much money spent, enormous amount of running around, wrappingh prepping, being nice to distant family, trying REALLY hard not to be too much of a bastard to any of them. Strain of being "normal" funny me rather than WAY too honest, doesn't get the social niceties, trying to navigate completely inexplicable relationship maps of family and friends etc was enormous. Apparently I succeeded "pretty well" (up my acting and disguise ranks).
However situation with wife still strained
Apologies to anyone who found any of the above offensive, boring or irrelevant - TOUGH
BUT I feel better-ish
(Last admin note
He's fine - well he's OK and DOESN'T need support or help.
Though - Thanks to anyone who has enough empathy to give a damn, he lost most of that years ago!
Such occassional rants are one of his ways of maintaining his mental heath, and they work well.
This site is one he feels comfortable on - however if members want such stuff taken away he's fine with that. Contact me or @Shane to complain .)
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